What does "Family" mean to you?
I've always envy people with happy familly when I'm young (even up till now)
My parents divorced in year 2005, when I was in primary 4. At that time, I was only a 10YO girl so I didn't know anything about divorce. It's only when we shifted from Fajar (used to stay in Fajar, on the 12th floor & my grandmother staying on the 8th, rlly miss those time a lot sigh) to Marsiling (where I am staying rn)
Ever since that time, I would rarely see my dad. All I saw was my mom & bro (I only have one younger bro & I'm the eldest in the family) Yup so subsequently then I know the meaning of divorce and also the reason to my parents' divorce. It is actually due to my dad having another woman outside. It's ever since that day that I hated 3rd party so so much.
If only there's no 3rd party around, I might still have a complete family. If only.
For these past few years, I only visited my dad for like once/twice per year. When I was still in lower sec, I went to stay over at my grandmother's house almost every holiday/when I am free (my dad is staying with my grandma rn), so I still see him for quite some time. But subsequently as time past, & getting busier with schooling & work, I rarely head over to my grandmother's house. It's only until the cny period that I'll get to see the both of them.
I really miss my grandmother so much but I would rarely head down because I don't want to see my dad there. It's so awkward every time I see him. Last year during cny period when we (mom bro & I) went over to visit grandma, dad is not even around at home. He was outside gambling I think (with the woman) So annoyed with him. Why can't he just return to take a look at the both of us (bro & I) It's like we rarely even come back here to visit y'all & you decide to just gamble away without coming back to talk to us. Actually, even if he came back to talk to us, I don't think I'll have anything to say to him.
Oh ya. Did I mention? My bday is one day before his, mine on the 24th & his on the 25th. Last year during my bday, he didn't even send me any bday text/call. Nothing at all. Totally forgot about it until mom wanted me to send him a bday text. Didn't want to do it but I did send him a text, and guess what reply I got back? "Tks" Just a thanks z I nearly cried when I saw the text. So we are so unimportant to you?
The only regret I am having rn is not able to have a 全家福. The most recent photo as a whole together with them was when I was young, like 4/5YO?
Aiya whatever the case is, I hope both my mom & dad will be happy together with their partners (yes my mom has a boyf now too)
Still envy those who have a complete family, learn to cherish your family members before it's too late.
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